This very breath
is the life that births leaves.
These very leaves in evening breeze
is life that fills me.
This very breath
is the life that births leaves.
These very leaves in evening breeze
is life that fills me.
I woke up to the light of the sun,
and it revealed all mysteries.
In a flash, I knew the meaning of a flower,
it was there in its scent
and in the pressure of its fine hairs on my skin.
The sea of my thoughts had parted
and in its place flooded the sea of sense;
my ears rumbled
when I rested on a nautilus,
and my tongue rolled along with grains
of salt speckled waves.
…
I’m shouting into the air—
shouting
I have found it—
the meaning of shouting!
It is the air, bare
to the lungs as they squeeze
to grasp every drop of light and water.
It is that wanting, that losing,
and the prayer that then rises
from the valley to stoke
every branch on the bluffs
with flame,
and casts every shadow away
from every corner of stone
in the wake
of its journey to the peak of the sky.
Now I smile to it
before my return to night
and the dream of undivided things.
We are all dying
and because of this I want to hold your hand.
Each day,
we are dying.
Each
day
I want to hold your hand.
Can’t you see,
the shining towers of gold
are illusions in the sand.
The stones are melting
and the heat fades with the land.
We are dying, my friend.
Hold my hand.
There is snow in my lungs
and though I try to warm my breath
by inhaling the sunbeams of the day
I seem to only speak an icy bitterness.
I used to dream
of singing, of adding to the world notes of amber gold,
but after seasons of unchanging season,
winter has set itself within my bones.
My vocal cords are frozen,
dead shores along white coasts,
waves encased like barreling wails,
burning to break forth.
They rage in me like blizzards,
covering wood and stone in crystal,
coated tears shed by shaded people crumbled
in unlit hearths,
and whose pains crackle in my ears.
To hear! Oh, to hear, loneliness so pure
that on its edge I see my image clear,
and to know! Oh, to know, that even those I hate
carry the same faceless frigid fears.
Is this humanity’s condition?
Doomed to days and deaths,
to wander in the storm,
white-eyed and blind—
Am I,
with small body and fragile mind,
to inhale every sour flake that curdles sky?
If so, I am a miserable host
because my words seem not to melt
or shatter ice,
and there is an iceberg enormous
lodged deep within mankind.
But the sea is wide,
and if I can continue—
continue sailing by star instead of sight,
then along the strips of sun I’ll cast my faith
and set to life
an ember in my chest—
in whose smallness rests the end
of permafrost.
And should it grow—
grow to rage like bead of flaming blood in cold,
then with frostbit hands I’ll grasp
my voice,
thaw the chords,
draw its breath—
and with full stretch
of lungs and heart
I’ll break apart the walls
with a song of avalanche.