Category: Existential Poetry

  • Pulse

    Pulse

    I am a man that often gives himself
    to illusion.

    At times, it is easier to ignore
    the tree,
    and focus on the counterfeits.

    The truth of the tree,
    its aging breaking bark,
    can be too much for this heart.

    However, what is true poison
    is fear.

    One is meant to feel,
    with every stretch and compression.

    Blood must flow
    to carry the minerals, twigs, and ashes of life.

    If the blood runs cold, then it runs cold,
    and one must shiver.

    And if the blood burns hot, then it burns hot,
    and one must sweat.

    To be real
    is to a body
    that cascades like leaves

    declaring
    wind’s undeniable existence.

  • The Two Trees

    The Two Trees

    I.

    Inside me
    there is a wild and rolling forest
    with trees of every kind braiding
    together their roots
    and intertwining
    their branches.

    Happiness abounds
    in my breast, scurrying
    across countless moss bathed stones
    and filling leafy basins within my being;
    joy is the sound of life
    unfolding, unwinding
    petal by petal, exposing
    the sweet nectar
    abundant for all to drink and be nourished by.

    Outside of me, though,
    there is another wild and rolling forest.
    It is called Humanity.

    I am a stranger here,
    despite my face appearing clear
    on the dark mirror surfaces
    of its rivers and lakes.

    But this Humanity, familiar,
    is cold and foreign.

    My easy mist
    freezes and plummets
    like sharp icicles
    when met
    by the sapless branches
    of this strange forest.

    They loom
    leafless and skeletal,
    gnarled fingers
    pierced through by rays
    of a spiteful Sun.

    What has happened to Humanity,
    I wonder to myself, sleepless
    each moon’s turn.

    My mind cycles…
    first a saintly compassion,
    then a righteous repulsion—

    Just look at the mountains!
    I scream.

    Once proud and noble aspirations
    now lying buried, obscured by frost,
    inspiring no one and nothing
    to challenge their lofty heights.

    Indeed, in this alien winter wilderness
    even my eyes are blinded,
    countless icy needles
    conspiring a netted haze,
    and perpetually dispelling
    the fires of ascent.

    Our soles, here, forever kept
    from touching those peaks
    where past trials would lie beneath us
    as ant trails in a bush.

    II.

    Blinded and oppressed,
    faced by an artic horizon,
    I struggle
    to move
    a single foot.

    Humanity
    is a wolf
    devouring itself.

    Steam from smoking blood
    coloring air and drowning the ground,
    Humanity’s raw red heart
    which has thundered perpetually
    like tectonic plates across time–
    forever clashing,
    forever thrashing,
    forever breaking apart.

    The pillars of Man
    crumbling in continuous
    vein attempts
    to usurp one another.

    Such a futile fight
    to sit under the light
    of a Sun who continuously glares
    at our confused planet.

    Here, the animals fade with the flowers,
    and the insects with the natural rhythms
    of life and death.

    In this forest,
    we die discordantly,
    slitted notes on sheets
    burned by fires stoked by hands
    that have traded instruments of song
    for instruments of death.

    Ours is a tragic melody!

    Ours is a tragic melody!

    Ours is a…melody—a melody, no less,
    we sing.

    III.

    Though I find this outer forest’s wild white howling
    obtuse, and struggle
    to love it,
    I note a soft fluty breeze blowing through
    its desolation.

    It suggests by its tenderness,
    its stonelike earnestness,
    that we hear it,
    that we heed its call
    to discard our coverings
    and stand bare.

    The golden gale that carries seeds
    to new promises and potentialities
    requires trust.

    Thus, I choose
    to stand naked, baring
    my leafy hermitage,
    waiting
    for this tundra’s absolving breezes
    to brush my tingling flesh
    and roll down the slopes of my lungs.

    Nightly, I dream
    that the soft and happy creatures
    croaking, chirping, singing, within my being
    disperse into this outer wind
    and offer something warm and alive
    to ice-scorched Humanity.

    I am not a continent so far removed,
    and against my own shadow
    I remain hopeful.

    IV.

    I can hear.
    I can hear!
    From within the walls, I hear
    the dripping!

    Ice softening and seeping
    into soothing earth.

    I see my face.
    I see it!
    Within those puddles, my reflection
    sits in their depths,
    clear as moonlight.

    Humanity, my kin,
    my mirrored joy and despair,
    my thunder and hale,

    how can I ever truly hate you?

    It is only ignorance
    that embitters my eyes
    and slants their sight.

    There is a horizon.
    There is.

    It waits beyond the white hills.
    I know this.

    I know because there is a horizon
    inside of me.

    Beyond its edge, somewhere over land and sea
    stands a godly tree.

    It reaches like a tower,
    ascending beyond the petty wintry whims,
    and its branches cross bladed border
    weaving a bridge and a revelation:

    Winter and Summer standing united,
    their branches interlaced as beginnings
    to one another’s ends.

    Humanity,
    a limb
    of my World Tree.

  • Better Days

    Better Days

    …and for a better world,
    he peered through the window and into the cold,
    seeing only the frozen blueness of the sky
    and the thin brittle branches
    of the barren tree that sits all icy winter
    in the lot next door.

    Like it, he now sits,
    thinking about the spinning globe,
    and the threads of fate that pull its inhabitants
    this way and that way, to destinies unknown
    and only revealed in the individual moment,
    like the gold curtain of the sun
    as it slowly drapes itself over one hill,
    one plain,
    at a time.

    What is there to do
    for the small things that live their lives upon
    the warmth of a fleeting thing?

    What is there for one to do,
    but follow the ageless trumpeting of time
    through the cold winters of the hour,
    and pray that after the hard spell of frost breaks
    one will rise as a full green bloom,

    like the tree outside his window
    when summer brings its love.

  • Feverish

    Feverish

    I thought I was cured—
    that the squirming feeling in my stomach had stopped—

    that it went to sleep along with the anxious
    breath my lungs hide when I hear about a new house
    bought, this marriage sealed, this baby
    born—I wish
    my years

    would feel less like dreamed decades and more real—
    that somehow my shredded apartment would be

    a home,
    but I’m still ill,

    and get cold chills
    when I see those tall sharp buildings and endless roads—
    when I hear the clattering teeth of the talking human being

    on stage, their words wet and thick with
    the smothering future and
    the market value of things
    and the career trajectories of
    people and the hard work involved…the vacation
    plans and
    retirement plans and
    insurance plans and
    health plans and
    plans of plans and
    plans and—I’m sick,

    and my stomach is churning again,
    but the schematics of my life refuse
    to burn in the incinerator

    no matter how high I turn up the flames.