Category: Existential Poetry

  • Moth

    Moth

    This is okay,
    lying here,
    being the night,
    being the breath
    and the rumbling wind
    outside the window,
    outside the body—
    I have no body.
    I am nobody,
    only fantasies fluttering
    and dusting
    milky blackness
    in a bedroom.
    I cannot be shattered,
    or have thoughts pruned;
    no voice or word can touch
    me, the stillness
    of mind and life.
    I am the womb
    of night,
    mother and babe,
    father and son,
    dreamer and dream
    with knees pressed to chest,
    and arms folded tight—
    Truly, I have no limbs
    only light
    wings
    that cut no air in their flight.

  • A Friend

    A Friend

    We are all dying
    and because of this I want to hold your hand.

    Each day,
    we are dying.

    Each
    day
    I want to hold your hand.

    Can’t you see,
    the shining towers of gold
    are illusions in the sand.

    The stones are melting
    and the heat fades with the land.

    We are dying, my friend.
    Hold my hand.

  • Ragnorok

    Ragnorok

    There is snow in my lungs
    and though I try to warm my breath
    by inhaling the sunbeams of the day
    I seem to only speak an icy bitterness.

    I used to dream
    of singing, of adding to the world notes of amber gold,
    but after seasons of unchanging season,
    winter has set itself within my bones.

    My vocal cords are frozen,
    dead shores along white coasts,
    waves encased like barreling wails,
    burning to break forth.

    They rage in me like blizzards,
    covering wood and stone in crystal,
    coated tears shed by shaded people crumbled
    in unlit hearths,
    and whose pains crackle in my ears.

    To hear! Oh, to hear, loneliness so pure
    that on its edge I see my image clear,
    and to know! Oh, to know, that even those I hate
    carry the same faceless frigid fears.

    Is this humanity’s condition?
    Doomed to days and deaths,
    to wander in the storm,
    white-eyed and blind—

    Am I,
    with small body and fragile mind,
    to inhale every sour flake that curdles sky?

    If so, I am a miserable host
    because my words seem not to melt
    or shatter ice,
    and there is an iceberg enormous
    lodged deep within mankind.

    But the sea is wide,
    and if I can continue—

    continue sailing by star instead of sight,
    then along the strips of sun I’ll cast my faith
    and set to life
    an ember in my chest—

    in whose smallness rests the end
    of permafrost.

    And should it grow—

    grow to rage like bead of flaming blood in cold,
    then with frostbit hands I’ll grasp

    my voice,
    thaw the chords,
    draw its breath—

    and with full stretch
    of lungs and heart

    I’ll break apart the walls
    with a song of avalanche.

  • Cassandra

    Cassandra

    I have inherited a worthless gift:
    the gift of words,
    an impotent wind
    that cannot shake the feeblest branches of this world,
    cannot support a nest, cannot roll a stone,
    cannot even feed the poet who gives his blood, and burns
    upon its crucible
    his soul.

    It is a worthless practice, yet I am committed to it
    for reasons hard to distill,
    like trying to discern the features of a mountain through a maze of trees.

    I am compelled to poetry
    like a moth is compelled to confuse
    a lantern flame for starlight.

    To ash, to salt
    to the dust that comprises the firmament of dreams,

    a bird given the gift of wings under the sea.